2 days ago…i got an sms around 7.00 am…but i didnt look it up…still busy at that time…a minutes later another ringing came from my hp, but this time was an incoming call…it’s yuce…

Sobbing…

Y:Kat, hav u read the sms???

K:Not yet, still busy ’round here…is it Ding’s ma?

Y:She’d passed the way this morning…

I was tougher than Yuce @ the time she called me…i even told her not to cry in front of Ding’s…Then,i opened the sms ding herself sent to me…it’s only a sentence…a sentence which suddenly reminisced all the memories of ding’s ma…the conversations i had with her, the way she talked, the way she walked, the way she laughed…

Suddenly, i felt my bones weren’t there anymore, my muscle shrinked from the place where they belong…so heavy to walk toward the telephone…i tried to call ding…

first ring…

second ring…

hang up…

I even haven’t finished saying hello…I have already heard ding’s crying from the other side…Then i cried with her…

I’m so ashamed to Yuce dat i encouraged her to be tough in front of ding…but me myself cannot hold my own tears…

well…Tinky, we’re always be here for you…

My second post today…

Called Yuce on lunch time…small talk on our future business…kkkk…hopefully will be "established" as soon as possible…amen…

I went to do a hair spa this evening…together with Tina jiejie…i went to Herry Han’s…She got a haircut there..(n also a temptation to have her hair highlighted,…kkk)…This hairspa was a revenge to my bad hair day 2 days ago…so relieve…^_________^

Back from the office, my mom asked me to accompany her to the daifu again…not bad at all…i can practise my mandarin (ni hao!wo mama jintian hao de duo le…blablabla)…well, i have a relative same age with me…he’s been in germany for 7 years n now he’s back for good…People always had him to translate manual on electronic’s stuff (which mostly are made in germany…the good one…they said…)whereas they always had me to translate chinese medicine de shuo ming or accompany them to the daifu…

Well, today…it’s not bad at all…^^

Some of my frens complains on my photos on frenster…why do i never update them???kkkk…^^…so lazy…

Today i upload one. It was when i met yui @her house (refer to my previous blog "little reunion")…I dun have any difficulty with my sight, it’s just yui’s glasses… so tempting me to put it on my face…whaddya think???nice????(it’s prada!!!!kkkk…)

To all my frens who are always read my blogs…i really appreciate it…moreover if  you leave some comments ^^

I love y’all guys…X.O.X.O…especially for the friendship you give to me!!!!!!!

Yesterday…i got a very bad day…the most bad day in my entire life so far…dunno why everything seemed eager to be mad at…kkkk…i’ve never been like this b4…

Before anything got worse, i asked my boss’s permission to go home earlier…the weird thing was that…yesterday i found  lots of smiling face (a yellow round face with 2 dot eyes and huge smile)…for example…i have to use a computer with smiling face wallpaper which i didn’t used to use it…on my way back home, a car in front of me got a smiling-face-pillow (it seemed really smile to me!!!)…then a shop near my house also had some (and they usually didnt have them as decoration…)weird…weird…maybe God wanted me to smile at that time…

I took a nap…weird…the feeling’s still there…then i took a bath…accompanied my mom to go to a daifu, so weird that the feeling gradually dissapear…on the way home…i told my mom that i have a bad mood entire day…then her answer really put me in a shocked…,"maybe it because you have a bad hair day…"…hicks,hicks…soooo everybody found that i had a bad hair day orr..it’s just my mom????

I dunno what 2 write now, but my desire to type anything force me to do the stuff below…

My idols (nowadays…)

SPONGEEEBOBBBBB SQUAAREEEPANTTTSSSS

I’m still a beginner (i’ve just watched 5 films of him…thanks to my 2-yrs-old cousin…), but i’ll be a huge fan…(can he beat F4???kkkk…^^)…he lives in Bikini Bottom (in a pineaple-shape-house actually)…bestfriend of Patrick, the starfish…works at Krusty Krab…

…the living one…

Yup yup yup…the mighty TORA SUDIRO (kkkkk…)…u can read my reasons why i luv him in my others blog (Tora,tora,tora)…He’s in the man with a red tie in the picture…it is the movie Arisan!…Salute for Tora…keep on funny, crazy, be yourself, n still low-profile…Gile loe Tor…bener2 brani malu deh loe!!!!…Btw, rite now on Metro TV is him!!!(Famous to famous programe)…

to be continued…

Hi guys!!!the event below happened 2 days ago, but the effect is still running til now…

When i get angry to someone…at the next minute, my brain usually will try to deliver some reasons to neutralize dat negative thing…mostly it works!!!!…(i can proudly say…usually it’s 90% works..^^).But, most of my closest friends n families told me dat i should try to manage dat…according to them, i sometimes have to "pour" out dat anger (in my way) before the accumulation of them wreaks havoc with my relationship to the person him/herself…well i always neglect it until 2 days ago…

On saturday i called a colleague who’s based in a city 6-hours-by-car from here. I wanted his confirmation on the meeting held on the next day (mhmh…tiring…a meeting on Sunday…). He asked me how important was the meeting. Since there will be another meeting next 2 weeks n it will be more important, i told him the truth. But i also added the phrase "in my opinion" before i told him that. He also told me that he had called our boss, n the boss didnt insist him to come this time. For the closing on our phone conversation that day, he said," OK i will call the boss again to tell him that i wont go to the meeting. My body is not well lately"

Before i went home the same day, my boss asked me,"Why did u told him that the meeting is not important ?.I’m not judging you, but i think you should be careful in expressing your private opinion in this company". I’m very thankful to have a boss like him…but i’m so sorry to have a colleague like him. Before this thing happened, i thought he is the one to whom i can share my problems, thought,etc…So disappointed!!!!…

Then, i called him on monday…

K:Well, about the meeting…what is ur reason to the boss ’bout ur absence?

H:I told him that according to u, the meeting is not important…(at least, he’s still honest…)

K:Do you think it was right for you to say that????

H:Do you mad at me?…dont be..pleasee…

K:Yup, i’m angry right now…The boss is very mad at me!!!(well, though the boss wasnt mad at all and i’m not THAT angry, but he has to know that i cant always be his shield anytime…moreover he went to surabaya instead of going to the meeting (surabaya is 3 hours by car from his town)…well well well…)

and after 2 days, every time i call him (i gotta call him everyday to confirm ’bout his sales and finance), his sound is very weird…not the same as before…but i think i do the right thing this time…have i done the anger management right???kkkkk…eni komen?

I had my hair coloured today…ever since i got highlighted last february…i got addicted to it…maybe i should add dat to my hobbies list…kkkk…

My hair colour is honey-red-brown with almost-orange-strips…kkkk…can u imagine it??…

After sending San an sms, she replied…"OK, i will come to your house 2morrow to see the new member of megaloman-club.." ^^…She had a yellow-red-brown hair colour also…

Sooooo haappppyyyyy with the new "roof" of mine…^___________^

Beyond my ordinary life today…i finally did the reply to ce mega…(the member of A5 sistahood..^^).She lives in Demak (half an hour from semarang by car)…i did write the letter…traditional  letter that i never receive anymore after someone invented electronic mail!!!!…

I wrote on 5 pages plain-grand hyatt bali-paper (i wrote on both sides of the papers..so total was 10 pages!!!!!)…answered her questions, told some jokes, wrote ’bout others "pain"(i just want to make her thankful ’bout the thing dat she had to face nowadays,it was not as big as others had…),etc,etc…

well, my hand was sooo tired after dat…kkkk…but my heart felt so relieved…i finally wrote her back (she always asks ’bout my replied letter whenever she sent me sms)…now i will be as curious as she did before…waiting for her reply…

About the tattoo thing…han-han,one of my bestfren in surabaya know a good place to get some…he has promised to accompany me going to dat place,but he also told me to rethink first…kkkk..^^…

well,actually i have decided whereabout to put the tattoos…one will be in my left arm…and the other will be at my back waist…but…still dunno when to do it…should i put it in my new year resolution???kkkk..

yuce, so sorryyy…i dont plan to have dolphin or any other living creatures to be tattooed on my body…maybe just a celtic or tribal design…they usually in a form of chains, roots, etc.no colour,just black or brown…well wish me luck…k???or..u also want to accompany me????or even JOIN me???hope soo…

Tinky…i use this colour again…so sooorrryyy…(",)

Once i read a book about influence…somehow if u or people near u get a bad mood or feeling, very soon the negative things will give ur surroundings bad effect, too…

i dont get along well with one of my colleague… long stories…but i learn alot by knowing her…not everybody happy with your effort to please them.What u think u do for their goodness, it doesnt mean they took it as a good think,too…

i’m very stressful today…hicks hicks…not because of my job…it’s about the surrounding…

then…i called sansan for my shoulder to cry on…hicks hicks…sobs…thanks san,for being there for me…to hear my stuffs…hicks hicks…

the day went on…

my handphone rang…(manusia bodoh.wav….not ringring.mid anymore kkkk)

it’s yuceeeeee…i was tutoring one of my student at dat time…but it’s okay…he still had to memorize some sains theory…kkk…

so happy to hear bout her engagement party, her planning in inviting the best friends, etc,etc…i luv yuceeeee…hearing her voice is such a nutritious injection for my spirit…she also wrote a long email for me…tengkyu guyss…

thank you San and Yuce…for being my shoulders to cry on today…luv u…x.o.x.o