Well, the weekend will soon be ended in the next 4 hours…i think i’m sucessfully finished my sunday’s routine activity, too…wake up around 9, have breakfast and surf the morning newspaper, take a bath, 2 option:watch dvd or go eniwhere around the town, lunch, take a nap (special only at Sunday)…

yesterday, i discussed with camelia a problem which we’re destined to face it at the same time…kkkk…the point which hinders us to get the solution is the same…just a different time, places, and person (of course…kkk)..pray for us pleaseee…

i took some pictures with my bro and 2 cousins at my house-to-be’s garden…silly styles, stupid acts…but truly fun!!!hope could be upload here soon…

My cousin Ita will fly to beijing and study there for a year…n i told my bro…(hint: my mom’s side grandparents have 18 grandchildren altogether. me, my bro, adi, annelia, ita are the top 5 then irwan, hendra-hendri (they’re twin), etc,etc…).

Me: well, among the top 5, u’ll be the one who cant speak bu tong hua…

bro: how ’bout adi?

me: remember, he lived in singapore from his 5th grade till hi-school. actually, he’s the one who’s 1st got it…

bro:…hmhm…but i’m the one who has oz accent…(well, it’s just his defence mechanism i think…)

me: what if in the future, we’re all have kids, n the kid’s parents are talkin’ in butonghua, but you…your kids will ask you," why cant you talk butonghua like the others?"…

me&bro:… … … …

me: well, i know wat is your answer will be…"… well, but i’m the one with oz’s accent…."

My bro laughed…

Sigh…the monday will so begin…but hey…i just remember dat we’ll have a holiday on our national day…Aug.17…M E R D E K A A A !!!!!!!…

How amazing dat things turned up to be calm, normal, and things were put exactly on the same place like it used to be…it’s just me who saw them from a different point of view…well, this paragraph is still has some continuity with the previous one…this morning i read camelia’s comment on my prev.post…an hour after dat yuce called me…n yup..it’s just me who saw it from a different point of view…but, now…it’s not a big deal enimore…kkkk (it’s like the old me has been made a come back…^^V-peace-)…

My day was just the same as usual…well, not really…i chatted with yuce n sofi all day…n ended up with yuce wrote ’bout her romantic moment wif aji…(aku ya mauuuuuu…mau,mau,mau…may i "borrow" him…kkkkk…)…poor sofi dat she had to finish the chat earlier, coz she had to prepare the "farewell ceremony" for her puppy named Leslie…tonight, someone will be Leslie’s next master…jia you sofiii…

My ex-roomie back in beijing finally "found" me here, at frenster, and apparently this time, she is back to jakarta for good…more friends to be visit on my premiere visitation to jakarta…kkkk…poor me…i’ll be 28 exactly a month from today…but i’ve never once set foot on the capital city of this country (i often said dat i’ve been to jakarta though it’s only for transit at cengkareng, but a friend once said,"well, cengkareng is not "jakarta" actually…it’s the part of banten province…" T_T…

I watched FINAL DESTINATION 3 w/my mom bfore i update the blog…i still couldnt imagine what if someone burnt when getting tan service for the skin…omigod…no no no…i better use some tan lotion instead…(but, all this time getting my skin tanned never come across my mind!!!!)…

gotta go to sleep now…

i have just read camelia’s recent blog and it’s just exactly the same with enithing written on my mind…kame rocks!!!!singleness rock!!!(ehm…sounds a lil bit frustrated????…naahh…)…^^V. well, what i want to pour rite now have a lil connection with what my kame wrote on her blog…

a few days a go i chatted via ym with sum’one who almost be the one in my life , but i truly truly deeply thank God for finally i decided to let him go…(though this was not the first proof which ensured me dat my decision was right…but this time was the one which really made me pissed off)

apparently, he’s still the same…though it’s been years…nothing (and none) on earth could ever turn someone to be better (or even be worse…),but him/herself…i definitely agree with dat quote…sigh…

hmhm…i’m confused about how to write my anger in a smooth-baby-like way…okay…

well, i think, it’s a 10 years old boy’s brain trapped in a 30 years old man’s body…(was it rough to describe sum’one with dat sentence???)…ok..here is the case…in the beginning, we just made a usual conversation, ’bout our job, life, his coming-soon wedding, bla bla bla…then, here’s coming his never-absent-to-be-asked questions…have u had a boyfren?…when will you get marry?…(gals, were they some "normal" questions asked by someone to whom u ever had a close relationship with???).

at first, i just answered him with a natural tone, still mixed with jokes…i was joking, joking, and joking ’bout his questions and "suggestions"…but one sentence he wrote was making me rili rili thank God dat rite now i’m only a friend of him…

he replied one of my jokes with this sentence…"no, i’m just afraid coz single women in their late twenties usually do something weird (= he means, something dat wont be done by married women/women with bfriend of the same age!!!!!!)…kam, it’s proof of your theory dat it’s really hard to be a single in the late 20s here…my myself get the "humiliation" from someone whose age also in his late 20s, the different is just he has a girlfren now!!!!…

i was speechless for seconds…(i thought it’s bcoz my brain lacked of oxygen since i forgot to breath!!!!). i didnt really understand the meaning of his words. Not long after dat, we closed the chatting window…but i was left curious, wandered, angry, confuse, but in the other hand, i also felt thankful, glad, something funny in my stomach, want to laugh, want to throw up eniting i ate since last 2 weeks…

Yup!!! it’s just definitely a perfect decision back then…but i never saw the past relationship as something i should regret…it’s just a part of my life which made me as i am now…

So, since i (and other single women out there) dont want to fall in the same hole, it’s not our fault if we’re be more careful in searching the one. Eyes, ear and  heart wide open…Isn’t it stupid if we dont get something from the past and still do the same mistakes????(this sentences are for people who suggest us not to be picky…well, picky in our ways is not the same with "picky" in general!!!)…

Well, the era has been changing…women are not only accesorries (as yui’s said!) and we dont want to get married only for erasing the word "geezer" on our forehead (women juga manusiaaa, punya rasa punya hatiiii..kkkk^^)…and i think it’s better to be a happy single woman than married with sum’one who succesfully put our life in hell…

well…this is a real progress for me in building my mood for updating my blog regularly…i dunno what topic shud i write now…i just let my hands decide on which button they will put themselves on…here we go…

i have just finished writing email for jessica and lolita, then i viewed domo’s friendster page (as i found his name in "latest update" column and suprisingly he got new testimonial(s), added new friends, and got new photo also—>if i’m not mistaken…kkk…) i also read domo’s testimonial…waww…so much friends who loves your cooking, mo!!!when will you cook for me???(last time i saw domo was in 1993…he went to my house right before he gotta go to bus terminal for going back to solo…btw, i still remember ur old black phone with minnie mouse sticker attached…or it is deasy duck???)

then, i clicked the "blog" sign…then here i’m…writing enithing which come across my mind rite now…

in another window, i search some information about Franz Kafka, a major german-language novelist & short stories writer of the 20th century, born in Prague..blablabla…sadly, i just cant close my notebook and grabb his books in the bookstore nearby…well, guys, u know the problem i face…but, i have decided not to blame anyone, anywhere, anything for living in jember…^^..it’s okay (for now) really…coz i still have an internet connection here…kkkk

Beside working on this blog…i also send some sms to my fabulous cousin in boston, coz today (well, Aug.3 actually…here is Aug.4 already…) according to the place he lives now…is his bday…zhu ni sheng ri kuai le, yong yuan xing fu, yong yuan kuai le…(i have a strong feeling dat he’ll read this blog…kkkk)…Adi, jia you jia you jia you…we’re so often facing some bumps on the road, but it’s just one way to tell you dat life is beautiful…ok??…

well, my bro is lying on his bed (behind me) watching the Superman Returns on dvd…sometimes i turn my head and ermh…erhm (clearing my throat) a lil bit yell at the tv…"damn gorgeous", "whatta man, whatta man", or "sooooo delightful"…kkkk…he just takes a really deep breath and throws me an i’m-so-annoyed-by-your-uncivilized-yells sight…poor bro of mine (he’s just set foot from his 3 days sales trip kkkk…)…

weekend is in the door step, i still have no plan what to do…i just too amaze on what news i got in the beginning of the weeks…jessica octavia is going to be in labour soon this month, lenny xiang hua is 4months pregnant, and apparently an hi-skul friend  will held a wedding party in december (i just heard the rumour, so i’m afraid to write his name)…

well, i think it’s enough for today…and to suze…i really miss reading your blog…

Everybody who knows me well will know dat i luv travelling, reading/browsing/watching the dvd/vcd ’bout new places…lately, i found dat the one who introduced me to "dat kind" of things was exactly my grandma’s old maid…

When i was around 3-4 years old, she was no longer working for my grandma…she worked der when my mom and the siblings (7 altogether!!) were still kids…No one knew her full name…so i just followed my mom called her "mbok Toen" ("mbok" is a javanese polite calling for women aged around 40’s and above)…Though she was no longer my grandma’s employee,but she always comes to visit my grandmas n her old colleagues who’s still work at my grandma’s house…her visit was around 2-3 times every year…

She dressed neatly…as Javanese women usually wear…kebaya, sewek, and the hair was always combed backways with a big "konde" at the back of her heads (her fave kebaya colour was any of bright colours)…she’s a heavy smoker…i remember always sit near my grandma and her…as long as they both were talking ’bout anything, i was watching her smoking cigarette (the traditional one…tingwe…nglinthing dhewe…wrapped-it-yourself (the tobacco and the wrapping paper are sold separately and u should wrap ‘em yourself whenever u want to smoke)…the tobacco smell followed her eniwhere she moved…

Usually, after she finished talking to my grandma, i felt dat "my time" has arrived to "interview" her…my first sentence was always…"come on, tell me your story"…she would answer,"what story?" and my second "demand" would be,"tell me where you’ve been all this long after your last visit"…and her stories would flow like a river…

Some places she mentioned i never imagine dat they were really exist here in indonesia. Indonesia is an archipelago…it was a lil bit hard for a 4 years old child to mastered the archipelago…Places she mentioned regularly were Yogya, Samarinda, Krebet (i didnt know where it is…maybe it is somewhere in east java or central java), jungles of Borneo, mountains of central and west java, etc…

As she mentioned SAMARINDA in javanese dialect…it would be sounded like SAMARENDA…"renda" is the indonesian of the word "lace"…so inside the brain of 4yrs old me…the city was covered with laces, ribbon, organdi, etc…kkkk. Sorry fon, please forgive my "wild" imagination about your hometown…but the positive side was dat…the 4yrs old me had known dat there’s a city named Samarinda in Borneo island…(remember…Indonesia is a vast archipelago…kkkk)…yup!i think it’s the beginning of my interest in digging bout new places around the world…

The creatures she met in the jungle were also completed my imagination ’bout "strange" places…but, sometimes she also mentioned ghostly creatures which thank God never haunted my mind all this years…^^…

Sadly but true, my families lost contact since years 2000…my grandma also misses her, too…when i was 4 yrs old…she’s already in her 40s…so, maybe rite now she’s already 65 or more…i hope she’s still in a pink health and not smoking anymore…i miss her heavy voice and tobacco smell…also the "mystic" places she’s visited…who knows dat in 20yrs she had been to burma,thailand, vietnam,china,etc,etc…