i have just read camelia’s recent blog and it’s just exactly the same with enithing written on my mind…kame rocks!!!!singleness rock!!!(ehm…sounds a lil bit frustrated????…naahh…)…^^V. well, what i want to pour rite now have a lil connection with what my kame wrote on her blog…

a few days a go i chatted via ym with sum’one who almost be the one in my life , but i truly truly deeply thank God for finally i decided to let him go…(though this was not the first proof which ensured me dat my decision was right…but this time was the one which really made me pissed off)

apparently, he’s still the same…though it’s been years…nothing (and none) on earth could ever turn someone to be better (or even be worse…),but him/herself…i definitely agree with dat quote…sigh…

hmhm…i’m confused about how to write my anger in a smooth-baby-like way…okay…

well, i think, it’s a 10 years old boy’s brain trapped in a 30 years old man’s body…(was it rough to describe sum’one with dat sentence???)…ok..here is the case…in the beginning, we just made a usual conversation, ’bout our job, life, his coming-soon wedding, bla bla bla…then, here’s coming his never-absent-to-be-asked questions…have u had a boyfren?…when will you get marry?…(gals, were they some "normal" questions asked by someone to whom u ever had a close relationship with???).

at first, i just answered him with a natural tone, still mixed with jokes…i was joking, joking, and joking ’bout his questions and "suggestions"…but one sentence he wrote was making me rili rili thank God dat rite now i’m only a friend of him…

he replied one of my jokes with this sentence…"no, i’m just afraid coz single women in their late twenties usually do something weird (= he means, something dat wont be done by married women/women with bfriend of the same age!!!!!!)…kam, it’s proof of your theory dat it’s really hard to be a single in the late 20s here…my myself get the "humiliation" from someone whose age also in his late 20s, the different is just he has a girlfren now!!!!…

i was speechless for seconds…(i thought it’s bcoz my brain lacked of oxygen since i forgot to breath!!!!). i didnt really understand the meaning of his words. Not long after dat, we closed the chatting window…but i was left curious, wandered, angry, confuse, but in the other hand, i also felt thankful, glad, something funny in my stomach, want to laugh, want to throw up eniting i ate since last 2 weeks…

Yup!!! it’s just definitely a perfect decision back then…but i never saw the past relationship as something i should regret…it’s just a part of my life which made me as i am now…

So, since i (and other single women out there) dont want to fall in the same hole, it’s not our fault if we’re be more careful in searching the one. Eyes, ear and  heart wide open…Isn’t it stupid if we dont get something from the past and still do the same mistakes????(this sentences are for people who suggest us not to be picky…well, picky in our ways is not the same with "picky" in general!!!)…

Well, the era has been changing…women are not only accesorries (as yui’s said!) and we dont want to get married only for erasing the word "geezer" on our forehead (women juga manusiaaa, punya rasa punya hatiiii..kkkk^^)…and i think it’s better to be a happy single woman than married with sum’one who succesfully put our life in hell…