I always regard myself as the luckiest person in this world…it’s becoz til i’m 28 yrs old past a month and 8 days (today is actually my bro’s bday…)i still have grandparents from my mom’s side…

Before, i never thought dat they’ll be getting older and as human, someday they’ll be back to HIS house up there…my grandpa got diabetic mellitus since i was in elementary school, then stopped smoking when found getting a coronary problem (i accompanied him doing the heart bypass surgery in 1997)…he never had anything serious until last 2 month…his health is dropping so fast and no one, even our family doctor, can predict before.

He was a basketball player in his younger age, until my grandma had my 1st auntie (the children are 7 altogether, my mom is the 2nd child, and my 1st aunt is the 5th child). He almost went to Singapore as a basketball player, but my great grandma forbid him, so he stopped playing it. His bad habbit which led him getting a diabetic mellitus was dat every time finished the game, he always had a es teh manis (sweet ice tea) in a big glass(the same as Macd’s large cup)…always…

As his 1st grandchild, obviously i became his favourite grandchild. When i was around 3-5yrsold, he often brought me to the vihara where he is becoming the member of the commitee (well, he IS til now). His friends always told dat i was actually his daughter, not his grandchild…

Recently, i tried to remember anything about him…his good, his bad (well, in my mind he always be my hero, though sometimes i heard some bad things he’d done when he’s young, coz in my acknowledge,he’s never done one…well, men do have a past…dont we?)…but, i really upset to myself, coz apparently i dont know him really well…

I dont know what he’s fave colours are, what his fave movies are, what his past time love story (before met my grandma i mean…^^)was, etc, etc…boy, i really forget dat my grandparents were young before…

Well, at least, i have asked him 3 weeks a go…my last visit to Malang…what is his fave colour…so shamefull of me…he loves dark brown and deep dark blue, he said he loves all dark colour…I remember after asked the colour-question, we talked about Lapindo’s Mud which till now is still unsolved…

I promise if God still let him live longer, i will spend more time with him, ask him the lingering question in my head, introduce him to Jesus’s love, so dat we can meet again at the end of the days…(current news: he is put in the i.c.u for suddenly his body temperature got high)…

YUp… I met ME lan…

TOday, i planned an "escape" from the very demanding routinity of a "financial controller" (if i supposed to mention my job description…^^)…just a "normal" activity of a woman in stressful moment…shopping…kkkk…n where else in JEmber dat i could regain my modest hobby…yup, yup, yup…Matahari Dept.Store…kkkk…

It surely there today to be my oasis of my stressful mind (kkkk…)…i went there with cc sukcien n firstly i went along the shoes and sandal section…went there, back here, there again…and suddenly…my eyes caught a very familiar face in front…yup, yup…Me Lan…

She’s one of my bestfren back in hi-school who was the first to "leave" my gank for a very reasonable reason…got married, when others in the gank went to college…and there she was, after 10 years of no meeting at all (yui and camelia…dont be that freak…i was!!!i never met her for dat long…kkk)…

we hug eachother…scream a lil bit..and ehm..she told me dat i looked slimmer…(am i??am i???)…kkkkk…i asked for her sons, but they didnt come with her…well, a good news for camelia…me lan will go to states after this Idul Fitri…but she’ll go to LAX…well, you better prepare and save some money to meet her…she just go for a holiday…

we exchange our number…fyi, Me Lan last number was "burn"…yup "burn" was the real word she used for not active anymore…kkkk…

Well, i guess my escape plan was agreed by Him…kkkkkk…

Long time no write…

Sigh…this month is such a hard month for me…hard, hard, hard…an unbelievable-childish-and-full-of-negative-thinking colleague (kkkk..no offense…but, dat’s the truth)…so much invoices to be paid (at work…not my private life…), but less income (this month is fasting month for the moslem ended by Idul Fitri…most of my customers prefer to "save" their money…)…bla bla bla…

Early next month my family will move to our house…the chaos of moving house…whaaaaaaaaaawww…rite now i wish i were one of the LOST character…deserted in a mysterious island…(oopss…but I should be careful for what i wish for…ok, ok…canceled dat wild imagination…kkkk)…

well, i hear a shout…which sounds like my name…

yup…rite…my mom’s calling…gotta go to move some more boxes to the nu house…sigh…hope i’ll be more "alive" there…amen…